Updates and Thoughts

As I continue my Opdivo treatments every other week, things are coming along smoothly.  Aside from a few minor side effects, it is amazing how much better I feel compared to when I was on Chemotherapy.  During my day, I find myself thinking crazy thoughts...or maybe ramblings.

An online friend who has a wonderful blog recently posted about the abundance of people that post things on social media that start with "_____ cures cancer." Beet juice, eat a lemon a day... you name it, it's been claimed to cure cancer.  Do you know how infuriating this is for someone with cancer when someone says, "oh you should be drinking 3 glasses of beet juice a day - that will kill it." UGH, really, then wouldn't the entire world be cancer free?

I know every word from family and friends mouths are meant to be the best of intentions, but seriously, if this type of stuff worked, why would I be abusing my body with chemotherapy, radiation, etc.

My days are filled with trying to find Hope.  Hope that I will be around long enough to see my children get married, to see and love my future grandchildren, to see my grandson Cameron grow up. These types of thoughts do scare me at times as I am realistic enough to know that I may never see some of these things.  I've already been on 4 different lines of therapy and am not sure what is left for me if Opdivo fails.

So what do I do to keep my spirits up?  My children.  Somehow they always manage to say something or do something that makes me smile or crack up laughing.

This video below is the PERFECT example.  After my lung surgery, you may remember, I had my chest tube for 6 weeks at home.  I had to go to the doctor every Monday for him to check it.  This particular day, Greg, Caitlyn  and Maria (Doodles) took me.  As with every visit, they would wheel me into the waiting room.  I would get up and walk to the exam room.  After about 15 minutes, I came out - the receptionist and nurse gave me the strangest look (while smiling) and when I walked out, Greg, Caitlyn  and Maria (Doodles) were hysterically laughing.  Below is how they amused themselves while I was in the Doctors exam room.

TURN YOUR SOUND UP

https://www.facebook.com/HockeyMomX7/videos/10202694451335971/?pnref=story

I have no words.  I walked out and was laughing so hard when they showed the Doctor and I the video that I was bent over in pain.  I try to look at this video as often as possible because the lesson here is.......

Any situation can be depressing and heartbreaking - but we must make the best of it.  We must find the best of everyday and celebrate that.

This day is a perfect example.  Three of my  children had recently learned their mother had lung cancer, are sitting in the surgeons office with me, I am barely walking and had a tube coming out of my back - but they managed to bring a smile to everyone's face.  Including mine.

When I feel I am having a bad day and think of the negatives surrounding cancer, I just look at this video and realize there is good in everything.  Sometimes you just need to search for it.