Fear.
Denial.
Grief.
Anxious.
Depressed.
Fear - always
These are all words that can describe my past 2 - 1/2 years. But as of today. JOY. YES, JOY!! That is the only way I can describe my feelings. It has actually been that long. Dozens of chemotherapy appointments, 35 radiation treatments. 18 Opdivo treatments so far - AND IT IS FINALLY WORKING. To see an x-ray report that repeatedly says "stable" within the description of all the tumors is a remarkable feeling.
To be honest, I never in a million years thought I would make it this far. My mother's family (6 siblings) has a history of cancer. They fought it as long as they could, but ultimately, 4 of them died of cancer. I thought cancer would have gotten me by now.
But by the grace of God and the medical breakthroughs, I am still here. My life is considerably different. I am still fighting. I am still going every two weeks for treatments. I still have side effects (nothing compared to chemo, but still...) and I continue to love. I have too much to look forward to so I can't let the 'C' word get the best of me.
Doing the happy dance. Enjoying life. Loving my family. Taking exercise classes to "get stronger" to continue to fight the beast!!
with that spirit of fighting out cancer you will surely gonna beat the hell out of cancer,really love your spirit,you remind me of my great aunt mindy she died two years ago fighting lung cancer and she was being treated by Comprehensive Pain Management
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