tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5216307392203664302024-03-05T09:35:26.230-05:00My Unexpected JourneyMy writings of love, family & a Lung Cancer diagnosis and a separate Bladder Cancer diagnosis. Sharing My Journey of Lung Cancer, Bladder Cancer, Surgery, Radiation, Chemotherapy, Immunotherapy, TURBT and Metastasis. The good days and the bad. Taking a step back and looking at the big picture with the love of family and friends.Jennifer Tothhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12270138673435226454noreply@blogger.comBlogger96125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-521630739220366430.post-67890779682592567982017-11-06T11:02:00.001-05:002017-11-06T11:28:28.253-05:00IS THIS NEWS GOOD OR BAD?<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">I have always been honest in all of my writings. Whether it's for my blog, Lungevity or LungCancer.net, I say the good with the bad. So here is what I know and don't know.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">As you know from reading my blog, I am preparing for my next TURBT this Thursday, Nov. 9th. I had a hard time with the last two (which had one tumor) so this time knowing I have 5 plus, I'm extremely nervous.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">I'm nervous. Take that with a grain of salt. Doc chose to switch my medications last week. She wants me to take Klonopin instead of Xanax. Ok, I thought. Let's try it. I took it for 3 days. NO. NO. AND NO. On day 3 and 4, I was a basketcase. Hands shaking, voice shaking, crying if I couldn't find the new roll of toilet paper. I was a mess. I couldn't stop thinking,<b> "I have cancer. I'm going to die." </b> This is what we say at initial diagnosis. Not four years in. So I called my doctor on call and he said to immediately stop taking new stuff and go back to old until I talk to my doctor this week. That phone call took place yesterday and I can't begin to tell you how much better I feel.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Now on to the lungs. My latest CT scan does show several minor/tiny changes. Multiple lung nodules and lymph nodes are stable - no change. One nodule grew by 4mm. And a new one has appeared. 3mm.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Bottom line my doctor is ecstatic about my lungs....still. She feels since I have tolerated Opdivo for so well for so long that I am the 1% of patients that make it to/past 5 years. (My 4 year canserversary is this January). She feels even though there are very minor changes, the other nodules staying the same proves to her Opdivo is still working and we will continue it. She is cautious because of new growth, but it is so small we will simply watch it during my every 3 month scans. She specifically said to me, "even with these changes I am no where near saying we are at the end of the road." This is a great thing!</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">So overall, good scans. I say that lightly because the day I found out about the tiny growth, was one of the days on the new medications, so I was a basketcase. Now that I'm back on my original, I'm ok with this - no growth means I'm still winning. As I said earlier,<b> "I have cancer I'm going to fight this monster and kick its ass."</b></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;"><b><br /></b></span>Jennifer Tothhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12270138673435226454noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-521630739220366430.post-26082137248704630752017-10-18T20:43:00.000-04:002017-10-18T20:52:28.183-04:00Bladder Cancer News<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Four months ago, my Bladder Cancer was found by accident while getting scans to check on my Lung Cancer. A cystoscopy <span style="background-color: white; color: #222222;">is a procedure that allows your doctor to examine the lining of your bladder and the tube that carries urine out of your body (urethra). A hollow tube (</span><b style="background-color: white; color: #222222;">cystoscope</b><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222;">) equipped with a lens is inserted into your urethra and slowly advanced into your bladder. I had my first cystoscope on July 11, 2017, confirmed it was a tumor and was scheduled for the TURBT surgical procedure. My TURBT </span>was performed and confirmed it was a tumor and it was only on the lining of my bladder. </span><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "roboto" , "arial" , sans-serif;">A </span><b style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: Roboto, arial, sans-serif;">TURBT</b><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222; font-family: "roboto" , "arial" , sans-serif;"> is a procedure in which bladder tumors can be removed from the bladder wall. This is a procedure performed completely with a scope that is inserted through the urethra into the bladder. It is generally performed in the hospital setting as an outpatient with the patient anesthetized.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Well, today was that day. The day. The first time we would look in my bladder since removing the one tumor. He began the procedure and we could instantly see on the monitor as the tube was being moved in. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">What I saw was horrifying. A lot of things that looked like my originial tumor in various spots on my bladder. My Urologist immediately withdrew the cystoscope and said, "We see 4 and I didn't even look around. No need to make you look at it now. I'll take care of it in surgery."</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Certainly not the news I was looking for but onward I go. I know I can have several TURBTS but I can't imagine getting this done every 3 months. Not sure how that will go but will certainly keep you informed.</span></div>
Jennifer Tothhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12270138673435226454noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-521630739220366430.post-60646709528100740702017-09-24T17:50:00.001-04:002017-10-16T15:00:41.246-04:00Update and What's Happening<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Wow, I just realized it has been quite a while since my last update. Part of that is because it was a rough few months, but also, part of it is due to me writing for LungCancer.net. My apologies to those of you who follow my progress via my blog.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Now the not so great news. As I posted a while back, they discovered that I have Bladder Cancer as well. It is NOT metastatic. It is a separate cancer. In July, I had Bladder Surgery and the tumor was removed. The plan was for me to get six immunotherapy treatments which would be placed in my bladder via a catheter. I then I had keep it in there for 2 hours.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Well, as you know, my Opdivo is an immunotherapy. When my Oncologist found out, she freaked. She immediately called the Urologist to discuss what was going on. The final decision was that I was to stop the Bladder Cancer therapy because as we know there have been years upon years of studies on immunotherapies BUT NONE for people who are having 2 different immunotherapies at the same time.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Okay, so now what? Apparently there is a different chemotherapy/immunotherapy drug called Mytomycin that they decided would be a better choice. I began these treatments in August. The first two or three weren't too bad. A bit of pain for a day or two and trouble urinating.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Then the bottom fell out. On my fourth treatment, I was in extreme pain in my bladder. It was spasming. I felt a constant urge to pee!! And I mean constant. Then I broke out in hives from my neck to my toes. Between the pain and itching, I didn't know where to begin. This lasted 9 days. Of course, I called the Urologist and just my luck he was on vacation. The nurse did reach him and he said that I should stop my treatments immediately (just the bladder) and we would wait until my next scans in October to discuss what to do.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">The probability of Bladder Cancer tumors coming back is high - even with treatment after removal. So I'm not sure where this leads me. Since these two drugs are the only options for me right now, we have to wait and see. At least both doctors are in agreement that my Lung Cancer is the priority. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">I will update again soon, I promise. As soon as I know what is going on. In the meantime, I will just continue my Opdivo every two weeks.</span>Jennifer Tothhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12270138673435226454noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-521630739220366430.post-66093753073781670812017-05-09T14:36:00.002-04:002017-09-26T17:49:24.235-04:00Bladder Surgery<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">If you follow my blog, you know that last month I was diagnosed with Bladder Cancer, in addition to my Lung Cancer.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">In 2 days, May 11th, I will have surgery to remove the tumor and I will be Staged at that point. After testing, staging and surgery, I will know the exact treatment going forward.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Even though it is distressing to have two cancers at the same time, it is comforting to know that Bladder Cancer can be easily managed (In comparison to what I'm used to with Lung Cancer). And, I can do both treatments at the same time.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">I thank you and ask for your continued prayers</span>Jennifer Tothhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12270138673435226454noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-521630739220366430.post-88149905507058139692017-04-13T15:18:00.002-04:002017-09-26T17:48:50.429-04:00LUCKY ME - 2 DIFFERENT CANCERS<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Having over a dozen people in my family diagnosed with cancer, I've always approached "growing up" with - not if I will get cancer but when??</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">As you all know, it has been 3 years and 3 months since my Lung Cancer diagnosis and everything that journey has entailed. Well, yesterday I had a Cystoscopy to check a mass in my bladder.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">It is approx. 1.5 cm in size and it is Bladder Cancer. It is not from my primary tumors in my lungs but a totally separate tumor. According to the Urologist, I will have surgery to remove the tumor. It is called TURBT procedure. <span style="background-color: white; color: #222222;">A </span><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222;">TURBT</span><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222;"> is a procedure in which bladder tumors can be removed from the bladder wall. This is a procedure performed completely with a scope that is inserted through the urethra into the bladder. It is generally performed in the hospital setting as an outpatient with the patient anesthetized.</span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;"><span style="background-color: white; color: #222222;">6 weeks after the surgery I will begin chemotherapy. BCG, </span></span><span style="color: #2a2a2a; font-family: "proxima_nova_rgregular" , "arial" , sans-serif;">Bacillus Calmette-Guérin, is the treatment. </span><span style="color: #2a2a2a; font-family: "proxima_nova_rgregular" , "arial" , sans-serif;">Bladder cancer is the only cancer in which BCG is commonly used. Other agents have been used in bladder cancer, but none has surpassed the effectiveness of BCG. </span><span style="color: #2a2a2a; font-family: "proxima_nova_rgregular" , "arial" , sans-serif;">In my case the BCG will administered in an induction (once weekly for 6 weeks), wait one month, then maintenance (once weekly for 3 weeks) course. Another 6-week course may be administered if a repeat cystoscopy reveals tumor persistence or recurrence. Induction therapy combined with maintenance therapy every 3-6 months for 1-3 years may provide more lasting results. Periodic bladder biopsies are usually necessary to assess response.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #2a2a2a; font-family: "proxima_nova_rgregular" , "arial" , sans-serif;">So there you have it. I am officially a Lung Cancer Survivor and I intend to be a Bladder Cancer Survivor.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #2a2a2a; font-family: "proxima_nova_rgregular" , "arial" , sans-serif;">I continue to thank you for all your love, support and prayers.</span>Jennifer Tothhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12270138673435226454noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-521630739220366430.post-14976214784595954572017-04-07T18:40:00.001-04:002017-04-07T19:00:44.243-04:00YES, I'VE BEEN AVOIDING YOU<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">I have a confession. For the past 48 hours, I have been avoiding all of you. Text messages, emails and Facebook posts. You all saw I was getting my scan results yesterday and then I was back at the hospital today.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Truth is my scan results were not that great. First, my lung scans were GREAT!! Slight shrinkage since 3 months ago, so we know Opdivo is still doing it's job and kicking cancer's ass.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Now, the not so good news. The CT scans showed a mass in my bladder. My oncologist stated she highly doubts it is spread from my lung because that is very rare. However, there is the possibility it is a 2nd cancer - just my luck. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">She wanted me to see a Urologist ASAP but unfortunately they were booked until May 24th. She stressed I should call periodically and see if they have cancellations. Lucky for me, I called today and they had an opening.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">The Urologist and I went over my scans. He stated we have to do a <b><a href="http://www.urologyhealth.org/urologic-conditions/cystoscopy" target="_blank">cystoscopy</a> </b>so he can look at it and get a biopsy. We have scheduled that for next Wednesday. He will be able to tell me at that time if it indeed is a 2nd cancer. He was very compassionate, concerned and explained things in detail. He told me he cannot make an educated guess without a biopsy but the way it looks makes him pessimistic of the final diagnosis. The fact that I've never had a bladder infection or kidney infection is another bad sign. My kidneys and bladder work great.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">As cancer patients, we all know, no one ever rushes anything. We wait and we wait. What alarms me this time is his push to his staff that this needs to be done "tomorrow." That is exactly what he told his staff while I was there.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">I will keep you all informed going forward I apologize for not answering your questions but I needed time to tell all 7 of my children - that took an entire day :)</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">I love you all for all the support your provide. The past two days have proven I have many people behind me giving me the strength to continue the big fight. During my mother's cancer fight in the early 80's, she always said, "God only gives you what you can handle." All I can say mommie is - enough already!</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Say an extra prayer for me.</span>Jennifer Tothhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12270138673435226454noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-521630739220366430.post-28695128904893406162017-02-26T13:02:00.001-05:002017-02-26T13:26:57.700-05:00F*CK CANCER<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">First, accept my apologies for my language. Today is not a good day. I woke up today to find my Facebook news feed filled about the loss of a wonderful young woman, wife and mother to an 18 month old has passed away from this horrible disease.</span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #4a4a4a; font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Elizabeth Dessureault, a young newlywed in 2015, pregnant with her first child found out she had lung cancer. Throughout her ordeal fighting this beast she dedicated her time to advocating for those who have cancer. Just recently she raised over $5,000 for the <b><a href="http://www.teamdraft.org/" target="_blank">Team Draft Superbowl Challenge</a></b>. She was tireless. </span></div>
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #4a4a4a; font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">She was fearless. <b><a href="http://fromlizzieslungs.com/">FromLizziesLungs.com</a> </b>was her outlet to keep everyone up to date AND raise necessary funds to help research lung cancer.</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #4a4a4a; font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">I met Lizzie last year at the 2016 Hope Summit. While her diagnosis and fight was hard, depressing and life-threatening you never would have know when you saw her smile. Ask her about her son, and her face beamed. She was the shining light in a horrible situation</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Prior to my diagnosis, I never faced my mortality head on. Since then, that is all I do. I say that and I know it sounds dreary but I really don't mean it that way. Once a diagnosis of cancer is received, one tends to go through the same stages of grief from the loss of a loved one: denial and isolation, anger, bargaining, depression, and finally acceptance. The denial and isolation is what led me to begin this blog in the first place. It gave me an outlet to express my feelings and informing family and friends about my condition without having to relive it over and over.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">It took me a long time to reach acceptance. That was the hardest of this journey. But I now know, everyone will die sometime. I just so happen to be one of those who knows "it's coming." So in the meantime, I enjoy every moment I have with family and friends. I try to educate everyone I meet YOU can get lung cancer. It is the #1 killer in the U.S. Yes, I know you thought it was breast cancer but truth be told, lung cancer kills more people than breast and colon cancer combined. The problem is people who never smoked get it. People who smoke (or quit) get it. It effects everyone. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">So my days are spent enjoying what I have. Not complaining about what I don't have. Enjoying my children. Enjoying my grandchild. And my advocacy work.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">It hasn't been a fun-filled 3 years but it has been more educational that my prior 54 years. Once you accept you have cancer, you can begin to dwell on the goodness of everyone and everything. You stop taking things for granted - and you love with a vengeance.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Here's to ALOT MORE YEARS!!! My spring and summer are going to be fantastic. 2017 HOPE Summit in D.C, Free To Breathe conference in Minnesota, 2017 Family Lovefest in Richmond....and so many more memories.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">in my mind, I always think, "is this the last ____ holiday they will see me so don't let them see my true inner fears?</span></blockquote>
<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Those days are few but they still happen. I don't tell everyone about these because I strongly feel everyone is fighting their own battles. THAT is what is the most important thing I learned!!</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">No matter how bad I feel and no matter what beast I am battling, there are those with much worse. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">2016 has been rough. Let's just wait a few more days and it will be over. We can only pray that next year will be an improvement for everyone. Let's not dwell on the past. Let's make it a point to do better for others and ourselves. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">May you all have a HEALTHY, joyous, prosperous and loving 2017.</span><br />
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Jennifer Tothhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12270138673435226454noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-521630739220366430.post-70160609826434406242016-12-19T18:13:00.000-05:002016-12-19T18:34:42.405-05:00OUR FAMILY<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">As I described in my last post, our 2nd son got married on December 2, 2016. Here is the wedding video provided by the photographer.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">(Pssst....my beautiful grandson, Cameron, was Dad's Best Man - giving a beautiful toast).</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">34 months and counting - I'm kicking cancer's ass!!</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">My beautiful 7 children............</span><br />
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Jennifer Tothhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12270138673435226454noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-521630739220366430.post-25220058948102291432016-08-25T17:34:00.001-04:002016-08-25T17:37:29.574-04:0030 Months and 3 Days <span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Yep. It dawned on me today that is how long it's been since my Lung Cancer diagnosis. 2 years, 6 months and 3 days. Amazing that is how long it's been. I can't begin to describe my delight when I see that typed on a page.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">These are all words that can describe my past 2 - 1/2 years. But as of today. JOY. YES, JOY!! That is the only way I can describe my feelings. It has actually been that long. Dozens of chemotherapy appointments, 35 radiation treatments. 18 Opdivo treatments so far - AND IT IS FINALLY WORKING. To see an x-ray report that repeatedly says "stable" within the description of all the tumors is a remarkable feeling.</span><br />
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I'm participating in an event to raise money to fight lung cancer—and I need your help!</div>
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I'm planning to attend LUNGevity Foundation's National HOPE Summit in Washington, DC, in spring - it's a special conference just for lung cancer survivors like me. <strong style="box-sizing: border-box;">If I can raise $1,500 or more in donations, LUNGevity will cover my travel expenses, including US round-trip transportation and hotel accommodations. </strong>I was lucky enough to attend last year and I am convinced the knowledge I came home with has helped me continue my fight to beat this beast.</div>
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Proceeds from this fundraiser will benefit LUNGevity Foundation, the leading private provider of research funding for lung cancer. Your donation goes directly to LUNGevity under my name. Donations end March 24, 2017.</div>
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LUNGevity Foundation is firmly committed to making an immediate impact on increasing quality of life and survivorship of people with lung cancer by accelerating research into early detection and more effective treatments, as well as providing community, support, and education for all those affected by the disease.</div>
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Jennifer Tothhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12270138673435226454noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-521630739220366430.post-58075851414803228442016-08-21T18:23:00.000-04:002016-08-21T18:23:09.166-04:00Feelings, Thoughts, Random Things<div style="background-color: white; color: #1d2129; font-family: helvetica, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.32px; margin-bottom: 6px; margin-top: 6px;">
This post was NOT written by me. A fellow cancer survivor, <a href="http://www.micksjourney.com/">Micks Journey,</a> posted this and it was if he read my mind. I wish I had his writing skills to articulate into words what I am feeling. The following did it for me. I did adapt a few sentences for me, but overall - Thanks Mick!!</div>
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As someone who has been through the wringer with cancer, I possess a drive and a sense of urgency to accomplish the things I want to accomplish. I know the value of my health, the importance of my time and how precious each breath is. I no longer take for granted the days I feel healthy and strong because I have experienced what it feels like to have my body disobey and my mind pushed beyond discomfort.</div>
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After treatment there is this huge rush to get back as though nothing happened. A mistake people make is that some seem to think cancer is forgettable. Cancer is a part of me now. It is a part of anyone who has experienced it. We cancer veterans live daily with our cancer – in the scars on our bodies, the memories of the people who were kind when we needed help, and the way that we can never again take tomorrow for granted. I am not my old pre-cancer self. I’m someone different and that is both scary and exciting at the same time.</div>
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Cancer is a bully. If I cower in the corner, I help it win. But if I tell the proper authorities (my doctors), stand up to it, laugh at it, and use weapons like healthy foods and positive affirmations, I swing the odds in my favor. I will always continue to fight, continue to laugh, and continue to experience life. Without cancer and all its lessons, I would have merely lived. Now I thrive.</div>
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<b>As a cancer survivor, I can’t ever have too many people surrounding me with encouragement on my journey</b>. My family, my children, my grandson, bring me joy, hope and the strength to forge on. My facebook family, my facebook friends, my "cancer" friends that I've made along the way help enforce the encouragement I need EVERY DAY.</div>
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Cancer has placed limitations on what I could do for a long time, but I didn’t let that stop me from forging a new path for my life. Let yourself be open to new things! Try things you have never thought about doing before. Enjoy them!! And enjoy yourself!</div>
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Yes, my life has been forever changed and yes, my life has turned upside. But even during this unplanned tumultuous part of my life, I deserved – no, I NEEDED to make plans. Maintaining my will to live and to put one foot in front of the other is, in my opinion, just as important as what medical science can do for me. Both must work hand in hand.</div>
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I don’t believe there are any one-sided lessons in life. Just as a broken bone heals stronger at the point of fracture, every defeat allows me go grow. I believe that each time my cancer knocks me back a step, the reverence that I have for life and its endless lessons grows stronger.</div>
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It is having faith in myself that helps me overcome obstacles in life, including cancer. When a thunderstorm rolls in, I just need to remind myself that there’s a sun behind those clouds. It will shine again – maybe not today or tomorrow – but it will shine again.</div>
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One thing I have been asked about a lot is how can I find the humor in such a shitty situation, and in many ways I still don’t know how to answer that question. I just find things to be funny. Not necessarily funny as in “ha ha” funny, but funny like bizarre (and yes, ok, some ha ha funny too). Cancer is random. It has a mind of its own. But cancer only controls me when I allow it to. It can’t take my spirit, my soul, my humor or my passions, unless I allow it to. So I dance (badly, I might add), I sing, I move, and I laugh in the face of cancer. I am very thankful for all the great things in my life, but sometimes life bites. When it does, I bite back.</div>
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The human spirit is precious and it deserves nourishment. Life can get back to better than normal. A new normal.</div>
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<b>Remember this – whenever you face a challenge, any challenge, you always have a choice to view the challenge as an ending or as a new beginning.</b></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">This is HUGE!! It means for the moment Opdivo is indeed "extending my life" as the commercials boast. While the best news would have been to hear they were all smaller, I am perfectly content (and thrilled) that they have stayed the same size!!</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I know I could have gone crazy these past 8 months waiting and waiting to see if my every other week therapy worked. Without the love, support and guidance from all my friends and family, I possibly may have given up hope because of not knowing. Your love and support got me here!!</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Now, I'm gonna really kick cancer's ass. Wish me luck and say a prayer for me as I continue my treatments.</span>Jennifer Tothhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12270138673435226454noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-521630739220366430.post-70428125591785301412016-08-06T22:35:00.000-04:002016-08-06T22:37:39.187-04:00Update For July<div style="text-align: left;">
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<span style="font-family: "arial";">After the conference, I was able to spend 4 days with my brother Alberto, his beautiful wife Stacey and Stacey's family. I LOVE HER FAMILY. As you may remember, I was unable to attend their wedding a year ago so this was my chance to meet everyone.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: small;">This month has been so action packed. I ended the month with my normal Opdivo treatment but the GREAT news is, on August 18, 2016 my doc is doing additional CT scans so we can see if the Opdivo is working. Prayers are needed.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial"; font-size: small;">I've also begun to make some slow changes. I've always been a water drinker so I started adding lemons to my water jug. WOW - makes you feel so energized. I also started drinking those NAKED juice drinks. Between the two, I don't know what's doing it, but I feel great, so I'm not stopping.</span></div>
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<br />Jennifer Tothhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12270138673435226454noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-521630739220366430.post-91254132204131165152016-06-29T17:08:00.000-04:002016-06-29T17:22:21.282-04:00Minneapolis, Minnesota<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">What an awesome trip. I have been in Minnesota/Wisconsin since Friday, June 24th. My trip started with a FreeToBreathe Lung Cancer Conference. My brain is on overload with all the wonderful information I learned and all the upcoming treatments that will be able to help all of us trying to survive this horrible disease.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial";">On Sunday, my brother Alberto picked me up from the airport and we had a Spaghettifest with his wife, Stacy and her entire family. WHAT A WONDERFUL GROUP OF PEOPLE. You may remember I was not able to attend their wedding due to my chemo last year so this was my first time meeting them. They welcomed me with open arms and love as if I had known them my entire life. Tomorrow is my flight home, so tonight they are having another get together to say goodbye to me. I am going to miss them all so much.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial";">The last two days Alberto and Stacy have taken me to see various areas of the Minnesota/Wisconsin area. It is breathtakingly beautiful. I am actually writing this post in the hotel business area so I will not be able to post pictures until I arrive home. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial";">I may have mentioned before, since beginning chemo, radiation and immunotherapy, I have gained 40 lbs :((( but when I arrived here I weighed myself and realized I have lost 23 lbs in the past 3 weeks. Not sure how but I'm not complaining. Although, I am quite sure my doctors will not be happy next week when I go in for my next infusion.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial";">I have felt my normal self while here, with the exception of the last 2 days. Both days, for about 5 minutes, I developed double vision. The first day I blew it off. The second day I called my Oncologist office. The nurse indicated if it continues for longer than 5 minutes, then I should go to an emergency room. Otherwise, they will see me Tuesday. ( I'm voting for Tuesday ). I am a bit alarmed because I don't know if this is a side effect of immunotherapy or something else (which we will not speak of yet).</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial";">My plan is to see the doc Tuesday, immunotherapy Wednesday, then leave for a 10 day trip to visit my relatives in Virginia. I think at this point, I have to wait until I see the doc to confirm it is still okay for me to go. Keep you fingers crossed for me.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial";">A special thank you to my brother Alberto and sister-in-law Stacy for their hospitality. Lack of sleep while I'm here and their love. Poor Alberto works nights and has had a terrible lack of sleep during my visit.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial";">So keep those prayers coming - we shall see what happens Tuesday at the doctor.</span>Jennifer Tothhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12270138673435226454noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-521630739220366430.post-90377105066542882482016-06-14T11:47:00.000-04:002016-06-14T14:04:12.706-04:00Updates and Thoughts<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">As I continue my Opdivo treatments every other week, things are coming along smoothly. Aside from a few minor side effects, it is amazing how much better I feel compared to when I was on Chemotherapy. During my day, I find myself thinking crazy thoughts...or maybe ramblings.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial";">An online friend who has a wonderful blog recently posted about the abundance of people that post things on social media that start with "_____ cures cancer." Beet juice, eat a lemon a day... you name it, it's been claimed to cure cancer. Do you know how infuriating this is for someone with cancer when someone says, "oh you should be drinking 3 glasses of beet juice a day - that will kill it." UGH, really, then wouldn't the entire world be cancer free?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial";">I know every word from family and friends mouths are meant to be the best of intentions, but seriously, if this type of stuff worked, why would I be abusing my body with chemotherapy, radiation, etc.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial";">My days are filled with trying to find Hope. Hope that I will be around long enough to see my children get married, to see and love my future grandchildren, to see my grandson Cameron grow up. These types of thoughts do scare me at times as I am realistic enough to know that I may never see some of these things. I've already been on 4 different lines of therapy and am not sure what is left for me if Opdivo fails.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial";">This video below is the PERFECT example. After my lung surgery, you may remember, I had my chest tube for 6 weeks at home. I had to go to the doctor every Monday for him to check it. This particular day, Greg, Caitlyn and Maria (Doodles) took me. As with every visit, they would wheel me into the waiting room. I would get up and walk to the exam room. After about 15 minutes, I came out - the receptionist and nurse gave me the strangest look (while smiling) and when I walked out, Greg, Caitlyn and Maria (Doodles) were hysterically laughing. Below is how they amused themselves while I was in the Doctors exam room.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">This day is a perfect example. Three of my children had recently learned their mother had lung cancer, are sitting in the surgeons office with me, I am barely walking and had a tube coming out of my back - but they managed to bring a smile to everyone's face. Including mine.</span><br />
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<br />Jennifer Tothhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12270138673435226454noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-521630739220366430.post-46382626935154007482016-05-12T11:26:00.000-04:002016-05-12T11:26:40.944-04:00Minneapolis, MN - Here I Come<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Between my trip last week to the LUNGevity Hope Summit, then my scare from my scans, I've kept quiet about another opportunity that I have been given.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">The agenda for the 2 days can be found by clicking <b><a href="http://www.freetobreathe.org/images/uploads/2016-LCLC-Agenda.pdf">here</a></b>. It sounds incredible.</span></div>
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<br />Jennifer Tothhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12270138673435226454noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-521630739220366430.post-25433167712774746942016-05-12T09:45:00.001-04:002016-05-12T11:15:49.639-04:00Oncologist AppointmentFirst and foremost, let me thank everyone for all the love and support I have received the last few days. I have been a nervous wreck as you can imagine.<br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Last weekend, April 29 - May 1, 2016, I was lucky enough to attend the LUNGevity Hope Summit held in Washington, DC. Expense paid by LUNGevity. I cannot even begin to express how inspirational, educational, loving and supportive those 3 days were.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial";">As a cancer patient, we depend upon our family for support, love and encouragement. But, to be honest, sitting in a room with 200 other Lung Cancer Patients has given me more than I could ever give back to them. It is truly amazing to sit at a table with 10 other people who TRULY know what is going on with you physically and emotionally. As a example, as a lung cancer survivor we cough. There are different types of coughs. Sometimes we need a drink of water. Sometimes we need a tissue. Sometimes we need someone to tap our back. The most amazing thing to me was sitting there and the person to my right or left, everytime, knew exactly what I needed. It was so uplifting to sit next to a Stage 4 survivor who was diagnosed 14 years ago.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">My special friends I made - too many to get photos with all of them</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">I truly am a believer that we cannot go through this journey without other survivors to help each other. Just talking to others can lift for spirits to a level you never knew existed since being diagnosed. As a result, I am dedicating myself to helping others.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;"><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">To all my brothers and sisters from LUNGevity Hope Summit 2016 - I love you all. To my fellow cancer survivors, WE CAN DO THIS TOGETHER!!</span></span></div>
Jennifer Tothhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12270138673435226454noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-521630739220366430.post-46829720965056435852016-04-17T15:22:00.001-04:002016-04-17T15:22:34.006-04:00Port Surgery (GRAPHIC)<span style="font-family: Arial;">Well, that's finally over. I was petrified since this was my first surgery where I would be put under General Anesthesia. All went fine.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Because of having the port in the same place, over the past two years, my skin has gotten very sensitive to the solution the nurses use to clean my skin prior to putting the needle in. My surgeon was concerned about putting the port back in the same place as he felt it was too much of a chance for infection. So instead of 1 incision. I had 2 - well technically, 3, but the 3rd one on my neck is not even 1/2 inch.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Now top incision is where my port is. I have a blood draw Wednesday, then chemo on Thursday, so we will see if it is working properly.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Sorry I haven't posted sooner, Percoset has put a halt to a few things the last few days :) :)</span></div>
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<br />Jennifer Tothhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12270138673435226454noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-521630739220366430.post-91751255838338701962016-04-12T17:30:00.001-04:002016-04-12T17:59:32.597-04:00Celebrate Life 2016<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;"><b><a href="http://missionpositivefilmsblog.com/">MissionPositiveFilmsBlog.com</a></b> - an organization in Hawaii, travel across the US spreading how Cancer Patients celebrate life and not death. They contacted me months ago asking permission to use me in their slideshow. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">This is their 2016 slideshow. I am at 16 mins and 17 seconds :) <3 :)</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;"><i> This begins what should be a very interesting adventure that involves taking a ridiculously large RV, and a ton of animals on a summer trip to Celebrate Life with those touched by cancer. We will be putting on parties in cities throughout the Northwest, and Canada, bringing together patients, survivors, and caregivers to share stories, information and fun. Amidst the balloons and streamers will be great guest speakers, music, food, giveaways, information on products and services, and a showing of the cancer survivorship documentary ” C – A Celebration of Life “. These Celebrate Life Tour events are free to the public. </i></span></blockquote>
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;"><i>In addition to the Celebrate Life Tour parties, our plan is to share our experiences with those that like stories slightly off the beaten path. Think Lucy and Ricky in an RV, for those of you old enough to remember that. I’ll be posting information about the why’s, how’s, where’s, and what in the world did we get ourselves into. You’ll get acquainted with the ” Scorpion “, laugh as we learn how to maneuver it, meet ” the kids ” ( which is how we refer to our 4 legged companions ), follow the ups and downs of the showings, and hopefully, see photos of some beautiful country on our hikes.<br /> We are not experienced RV’ers, we have not traveled with multiple animals, and this is the first time we’ve attempted these type of events, so trust me, you’ll definitely get some good laughs out of this one.</i></span> </blockquote>
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Did you know that 65% of patients diagnosed with Lung Cancer ARE NON-SMOKERS?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Finding lung cancer early, when it is easiest to treat, can save lives. Currently, only 15% of lung cancers are diagnosed while the tumor is still in its earliest </span><span class="qtip-link qtip-link-odd" id="qtip-link-0" oldtitle="The extent of a cancer in the body"><span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">stages</span></span><span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;"> of growth (localized)</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">One of the challenges for finding lung cancer early is that most people with lung cancers only have symptoms when they are in later stages of disease. Screening for lung cancer means using tests or exams to look for cancer before a person has any symptoms of the disease.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">Another challenge has been that conventional </span><span class="qtip-link qtip-link-even" id="qtip-link-1" oldtitle="A type of high-energy radiation that can go through the body and onto film, making pictures of areas inside the chest, which can be used to diagnose disease"><span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">chest X-rays</span></span><span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;"> often miss early-stage lung cancers.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">High-resolution </span><span class="qtip-link qtip-link-odd" id="qtip-link-2" oldtitle="A procedure that uses a computer linked to an X-ray machine to make a series of detailed pictures of areas inside the body"><span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">CT scanning</span></span><span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">, which is much more sensitive, is now recommended for early detection in high-risk individuals.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">But many people who develop lung cancer do not fit the high-risk profile, like never-smokers, people under the age of 55, or people who quit smoking a long time ago.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif;">The ultimate goal is to develop a reliable and broadly available test for lung cancer that can catch the disease early even in people not considered high-risk.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "arial";">Guidelines for lung cancer screening have been established by the US Preventive Services Task Force (USPSTF) using the results from the <span class="qtip-link qtip-link-even" id="qtip-link-3" oldtitle="A National Institutes of Health-funded clinical trial that found using a low-dose CT scan to screen for lung cancer can reduce mortality due to lung cancer">National Lung Screening Trial (NLST)</span>.</span></div>
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The recommendations include yearly screening with low-dose CT scans in adults who:</div>
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The US Preventive Services Task Force recommends that lung cancer screening stop once a person:<br />
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<li><a href="https://www.lungevity.org/about-lung-cancer/lung-cancer-101/screening-early-detection#2"></a>Develops a health problem that makes him or her unable or not willing to have surgery if lung cancer is diagnosed</li>
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For lung cancer screening today, low-dose spiral (or helical) computed tomography (CT) is used.<a href="https://www.lungevity.org/about-lung-cancer/lung-cancer-101/screening-early-detection#4"><sup>4</sup></a> This imaging procedure uses a computer linked to special X-ray equipment to create detailed pictures, or scans, of areas inside the body from different angles. The scans can show both two-dimensional and three-dimensional images of anything abnormal in the chest. During a CT procedure, the person lies very still on a table, and the table passes slowly through the center of the scanner. With some types of CT scanners, the table stays still and the machine moves around the person. The person might hear whirring sounds during the procedure. At times during a CT procedure, the person will be asked to hold his or her breath to prevent blurring of the images. For lung cancer screening, the procedure usually only takes a few minutes. A CT scan can give very detailed information, including the size, shape, or location of the abnormality. A scan <em>cannot</em> tell you whether that abnormality is cancer or not.<br />
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Although low-dose CT scans are a promising option in lung cancer screening, they do have some drawbacks, including that they:<br />
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<li>Find many abnormalities that look like small lung nodules (up to 50% of the time) that have to be checked with either another CT scan or a <span class="qtip-link qtip-link-even" id="qtip-link-5" oldtitle="The removal of cells or tissues for examination by a pathologist">biopsy</span> if considered suspicious. The vast majority of the time these end up <em>not</em> being cancer.</li>
<li>Can miss very small cancers or cancers that are hidden behind other structures in the chest.</li>
<li>Expose a person to a small amount of radiation. While it is a smaller dose than that from a standard CT scan, it often leads to further CT scans, which in turn results in greater radiation exposure. High doses of radiation exposure can lead to other types of cancer in the future.</li>
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Following are some of the factors that should be considered when a person discusses screening with his or her doctor:<br />
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<li>Screening with low-dose CT scans will not find every lung tumor</li>
<li>Not all tumors that are found will be at an early stage</li>
<li>A low-dose CT scan may find something that does not end up being cancer</li>
<li>Screening can only be done at facilities that have the specific type of CT scan, so a person may have to travel to obtain screening</li>
<li>Screening should be done at a facility that has a multidisciplinary group of experts for screening and for the management of lung nodules or other findings</li>
<li>Not all insurance companies currently cover CT scan screening for lung cancer, although some states have passed legislation requiring coverage for people at high risk</li>
<li>Screening for lung cancer goes hand in hand with smoking cessation. This is a perfect time to reconsider smoking cessation efforts and counseling</li>
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The current estimated Medicare reimbursement rate for a non-contrast helical diagnostic CT scan of the lung is $300, but this varies by geographic location<br />
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[This section is adapted with permission from <a href="http://www.lungcanceralliance.org/am-i-at-risk/where-should-i-be-screened/lung-cancer-screening-centers/" target=""><b>Lung Cancer Alliance</b></a>.]</div>
Ideally, the decision to be screened or not should be made with the help of a person's primary care doctor or pulmonologist. The doctor knows the patient's history and possible risk factors best and can help guide him or her to the right screening center.<br />
Some screening centers require a doctor’s prescription in advance for a scan. Others will do an evaluation, also called a risk assessment, without a prescription to determine whether a person's history and risk factors warrant a scan.<br />
We recommend getting screened at a center that:<br />
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<li>Complies with standards based on best published practices for controlling screening quality, radiation dose, and diagnostic procedures. We strongly recommend the protocol developed by the National Comprehensive Cancer Network (NCCN), but at a minimum, the NLST protocol is acceptable.</li>
<li>Works with a lung cancer multidisciplinary clinical team, including radiologists, pathologists, pulmonologists, thoracic surgeons, oncologists, radiation oncologists, and nurses, to carry out a coordinated process for screening, follow-up, and treatment when appropriate</li>
<li>Includes a comprehensive cessation program for those still smoking or be willing to refer to comprehensive cessation programs</li>
<li>Reports results to those screened and their primary care doctors and transmits requested copies in a timely manner</li>
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One resource for finding high-quality screening sites is <a href="http://www.lungcanceralliance.org/am-i-at-risk/where-should-i-be-screened/lung-cancer-screening-centers/" target=""><b>Lung Cancer Alliance’s listing of Screening Centers of Excellence</b></a>, which Lung Cancer Alliance developed together with a panel of thoracic surgeons, oncologists, and nurse navigators.</div>
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